Another picture of your cute little face!

Dear Son,

Today we had another ultrasound.  I was so excited all morning, anxiously waiting for the appointment so I could see you again.  (It’s like waiting the night before Christmas for Santa to come!)  The whole appointment you just stayed curled in a little ball.  You would move your legs a little bit, but you never moved out of your tight ball.  The ultrasound lady kept bouncing my stomach to see if you would move but I guess you were just too comfortable!  Once during the ultrasound you moved your arm around and it looked like you were waving to me.  It brought the biggest smile to my face!

You are growing well and your heart beat is strong. The lady said that you just looked perfect!  I know I tell you a lot, but I want to tell you that I love you so very much.  Sometimes my body hurts a lot, but I would never trade you in for anything in this world.  You mean so much to me and I can hardly wait to hold you. 

I love you son!

Love, Mommy

What a growth spurt!

Dear Son,

        I just wanted to show you your little growth spurt you just hit.  I feel like I just woke up the last two days and all of a sudden my belly grew.  I don’t know where it came from.  I am almost 18 weeks along at this point.  Man are you starting to grow.  I can hardly wait to feel you moving around.  I love you so much! 

Love, Mommy

So anxious!

Dear Son,

I am now 16 weeks along as of today.  We are getting so close to be half way done!  My stomach is starting to get a little bit bigger because you are growing so much.  I have been on bed rest the last week and will continue for two more weeks.  I am trying to take care of you because your health is so important. 

Often I find myself laying down and with my hands on my stomach.  I just lay there and think about you, craving you to finish growing so I can hold you!  Words cannot describe how much I love you.  The other day I felt the strangest feeling in my stomach and it was so strong.  I am pretty sure that it was you that I felt, but I haven’t felt it again so I am not positive. 

I just wanted to tell you that we love you so much and can hardly wait for your arrival.  Your entire family is so excited and I know that your grandma’s are dying to meet you.  They both ask about you and I know they can hardly wait to hold you like your Father and I…

I love you!

Love, Mommy

Today we had an ultrasound!

There is your little face!  This was an ultrasound taken at 15 weeks.  We love you!

What a scary day!

Dear Son,

Today I had such a scare. Your father and I thought we lost you. It seemed as if I was having a miscarriage because of some complications today. I was so scared and lost control. I wanted you to come to our family so bad and couldn’t think of losing you. We called our doctor and he said we needed to go to the Emergency Room right away and get an ultrasound. Well we saw your heart beat flickering in the picture and saw you moving around! It brought so much joy to me to know that you were okay. We asked the doctor during that ultrasound if they could see if you were a boy or a girl yet and she could. She told us that you were a boy! Your dad and I were so excited because we were hoping for a boy first so you could protect your little sisters. We just love you so much and are so glad you are okay!

Love, Mommy

Your heart beat

Dear Baby,

We had another doctor’s appointment this morning. Today was very special for your dad and I because we were able to hear your heart beat for the first time. In those few moments that we listened to you, my heart stopped beating and tears starting flowing down my face. Let me tell you…it was the best feeling in the world! Your heart was beating so fast and so many thoughts were going through my mind. I thought of what you were doing right now in my stomach, and what you looked like. I also was dreaming about holding you in my arms and your father and I singing to you and tickling you. Oh, how great it will be to have you in our lives.

We met one of the other doctors today, his name was Dr. Gamette. He sure was a nice man, and as soon as he walked into the room, I instantly felt a connection to him. He looked and acted like my Grandpa Tanner. He cracked some funny jokes like your great grandpa does, you sure are going to love him! It is really great to meet a new doctor each appointment so that I know all of the doctors when you come. I can hardly wait for that day to come!

I wish words could describe the feelings that I felt when we listened to your cute little heart beat today. As I sit here a couple hours later, I can still hear the beating in my head. I remember every detail of your heart beat, and I every time I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes. I can’t even tell you how much I love you. It’s great to know that you are my child, and that I am going to be your mom. I love you so much. As soon as Dr. Gamette left the room, I jumped down off the table and gave your father a huge hug. I just stood there in his arms and cried on his shoulder. Oh how much I love you, and I know that your daddy does too…

See you soon!

Love, Mommy

Our first appointment!

Dear baby,

Today your dad and I went to our first doctor’s appointment. It was so exciting to go and meet one of the doctor’s who might help bring you to us. His name was Dr. Jacob. He was a really nice man and he helped us so much. Dr. Jacob said that I am 8 ½ weeks along, which is so exciting. He checked to make sure that you are growing to be the right size, and you are! The doctor said that we could be expecting you around April 2^nd and we can hardly wait! We go back in 4 weeks to meet with another one of the doctor’s. I am so excited for our next appointment so that we can learn a little bit more about you. Your dad and I love you so very much and can hardly wait to hold your tiny little body in our hands! I love you…

Love, Mommy